Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in chelsea_terror's LiveJournal:

Thursday, July 13th, 2006
Thursday July 13th, 2006 11:29am	i can't really explain as to how i feel right now so here's a little of what i can get out. hungover tired angry really sad confused bored anxious probably a lot more than that, but you know. last night i lied. i told a little white lie that led into a complete catastrophe. let's just say that the night ended at one oclock in the morning on my way from rocky hill back to old saybrook in the car with my dad, and my dad was NOT a happy camper. i hope i never have to see him that angry again...or anyone for that matter. i seriously don't know what to think or what to feel after last night. it's like...i'm so confused, i lied to my parents and lost so much trust that i can't even look them in the eye, i fucked shit up real bad this time, and i have to pay the price, and i can't even do that. god, i realized what a bad person i can be, without even thinking too...it's way too much for me to handle this summer. i can't let my summer be ruined by this mistake and i have to figure out a way to get my parents trust back. my dad took my cell phone and he took my phone from my room. i think i'm going to stay away from my house for a little. i don't know where i'm going to go but as long as it's away from my fucking insane family, then it's good enough for me. i seriously, in all honsesty have no idea what to think right now, part of me says "i'm fuuuucckedd." and the other part says "shit happens." right now i'm trying to tell myself it will all me okay, but that isn't working out too well either...i want to not be with my family right now, i feel like a screwup and a liar and i feel like they hate me now. my dad even will make jokes about it..ike in a mean way...forexample, this morning: Dad:great, we have no milk, i ask someone to get milk and they don't do it. Me: Sorry i don't drive, dad Dad: well you had no problem getting to rocky hill last night did you? Me:: OUCH dad, ouch. real funny, did you make that one up yourself or what? yeah...FUCKKK THIS. i need a cig.
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Saturday, July 8th, 2006
Saturday July 8th, 2006 11:06am	so today kind of sucks. first off, i get a text from Ken saying that he has to work untill 5. which is great becuase now i have nothing to do all day and i don't get to see my boyfriend. i don't even know why i got mad..probably just frusterated at the situation, not him. OH and my mommmm this morning, she goes "how's your lip? whats that next to it?" im like ma thats the old hole, this is the new one...comonnnn you wernt born yesterdayyyyy. >_< AND it's cloudy which sucks dick. HOWEVER; i am going to see my sister dianna at her work today, and we're going out to lunch, which made my day a WHOLE lot better. Then i'll probably go home and wait untill 5 for Ken to call and then hopefully he'll be able to come down...if not, and if my mom forces me to go to DC with her, then i won't see him for about another 4 days which also sucksss. but on the bright side...nope there is no brightside. PCE.
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Thursday, July 6th, 2006
Thursday July 6th, 2006 7:26pm	today was kind of fun. i woke up around 10:30 and no one was home so i just chilled at my house. i got wicked bored so i hung up some posters, drank a beer, and layed in my hammock and smoked cigs for a while. i also had the urge to do a shitload of laundry and cleanout my whole room AND my closet. good thing too because now i feel refreshed lol. i also had THE weirdest dream last night..like..SO weird. but it's probably not too exciting for livejournal. at around like 2:30 my dad came home and we went on the boat. it was the first time that i actually undocked it, drove it, and docked it all by myself, i was pretty proud lol. we went all the way down to hamburg cove and even past that, it was so nice out. the day dan gets back from Europe, im going to take the crew to hamburg cove to go swimming AND use the water trampoline that's there for people to use, i'm so excited. july 9-11th my parents are going to washington dc, and they want me to go with them. my mom says it's because my dad will have nothing to do and i could walk around with him while my mom's at her conferences. i really don't want to go, i hate how my mom is forcing me. I also hate how she is mad at me for piercing my own lip, it's my lip and i feel the pain of doing it, not her. UGH she makes me real angry sometimes...she thinks she knows everything, and she doesn't, and i always end up proving her wrong, and i sound like a 12 year old right now complaining ahaa. regardless, the piercing looks good and i plan on doing another one on the otherside for snakebites. yup, she can s my d. PCE
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Wednesday, July 5th, 2006
Wednesday July 5th, 2006 4:43pm	wow. i just pierced my lip again. last night at diannas i lost my lipring. so i went to walmart and i got a 16 guage and decided to pierce it to the right a little more. it was quite the experience let me tell you haha. oh boy. well it looks good and i shall take some pictures. i was shaking the whole time and it took about 4 tries honestly. hopefully it wont get infected...which i doubt it will..but hope it wont! =/ PEACE. Current Mood: traumatized. =D
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Monday, July 3rd, 2006
Monday July 3rd, 2006 8:38pm	so this is dianna. writing a livejournal update for chelsea, because she asked me so kindly to do so. so this is it, a public service announcement brought to you in part by dianna sohl her day was good. she got to see ken, and that makes her smile. but then ken had to go home and there was a little tear in her eye but she regrouped and pulled herself together and realized that he will be back soon. so she hung out with her best friend/sister dianna for the rest of the day. they layed in bed and decided it would be a good idea to hold hands.. so they watched movies. fucked up movies. and they danced together in a beautiful field of paper flowers, as they sang songs ever so merrily through the grass, afterwards they ate tea and crumpets and continued on their adventure to the magical lands. they searched and searched forever and met many interesting people along the way including boris brown and maurice mcphee. but at the end all they found was a cheese doodle..the crunchy kind, a few paperclips, some porno magazinez and a rock named helga. how dissapointing. but it was a good day. now she is waiting for pizza to get here, so she can eat in the nice air conditioned room and watch, yet again, another movie. this night is kind of boring. but as long as she has her best friend dianna and has nothng to worry about. she is going to depart now. she would like to say that she loves ken with all of her heart. goodnight and farewell
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Sunday, July 2nd, 2006
Sunday July 2nd, 2006 10:17pm	wow, today really was an honest to god bad day. However, it was the one month anniversary of my and Ken's relationship, so that basically got me through the day. I feel like shit. I ate more than my stomach could hold so i have a splitting headache and a raging stomach ache. Aslo, people really annoy me when they're always complaining for help for a problem that can't be helped. Like a girl who goes to my school called me last night wanting help in her relationship with some sketchy kid. It was so frusterating because i wanted to knock the kid upside the head and tell him to fucking grow up. I'm also in a really touchy mood tonight and i get annoyed at the most random things...like my dad, and my brothers little girlfriends who annoy the shit outta me. I need gingerale...but my brother is too lazy to go and get me some..so i have to sit here or in my bed in pain, oh well. Brightside: Ken is coming down tomorrow to take me to the beach with his friend Ken. I'm excited, though i wish Ken had the car from Dianna's already but that's okay, I'm just happy i get to see him. =] But i think im going to go watch a movie or something and then get some sleep. PEACE. p.s...i really do think this bad mood is because i haven't seen my sisters all day. =[ i love you amanda&dfacce.
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Wednesday, June 28th, 2006
Wednesday June 28th, 2006 5:14pm	if that isn't the cutest, most amazing picture ever, idk what is. yesterday was so amazing, my boyfriend came and woke me up and we went to the beach and jumped offthe bridge at indian town with my crewww. i am never letting Kenneth Willaim go. i am so in love with this boy, more in love than i have ever been and i like it that way. i can't wait till tomorrow when we go out to dinner and he gets the car. =D so my mom decides to take in these 2 exchange students for a couple days untill they can find a perminant host family. this is possibly the worst idea, we tried having an exchange student once, but he had to be sent home because he looked at animal porn..yeah, how awakward. so i'm really not excited for this tonight. but i will hardly be home so it won't be too bad. anyways i'm kinda hungry but theres nothing to eat. so i'll just read or go to sleep or something.
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Monday, June 26th, 2006
Monday June 26th, 2006 4:55pm	it's a crew thing. I'm at diannas house right now and we're waiting for the crew to get here. dface kenneth daniel amanda it's always better when we're together this night is going to be fun. i'm so excited. idk if i'm sleeping at home tonight i kinda don't want to but dianna and amanda have summer school tomorrow...so if i slept here i'd sleep in and wait for them to come home at 11. imgoingBYE!
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Sunday, June 25th, 2006
Sunday June 25th, 2006 1:31pm	RANDOM. okay so last night, andrew's graduation was pretty fun. there was a lot of good food and i saw a lot of my family...a little depressing but my friends were there to make it a lot more fun. i had to get up early and set up with my mom, i didn't really mind. after the party we all went to Dianna's house and hungout. it was fun because we always make it fun (ken, amanda, dianna, sam) dan went to a party but came back when i left and slept over there. this morning, ken woke me up at around 8:30 and came over in dans car to help cleanup. my parents were actually SO greatful and they are starting to trust him so much more which is good. they ran out of coffee and some other stuff and sent Ken and i grocery shoppping.. it was cute. i started this book last night called "speak" and it's actually really good. today is SUCH a lazy day i don't know what to do with myself. i talked to my mom about getting my nose pierced and as soon as i get the 60 bucks...then i'm getting it done, although, i'm not really sure weather i should get it done at Flatts or Fine Line. last night, i came in around 1 am...and my parents were "asleep" as my brother said, but they were really just waiting for me...they were also HEAVILY intoxicated...my dad started screaming at me and it only elevated from there, which made this morning all the more awkward. well, i'm off to read, and shower, and nap. oh AND i happen to be totally and completely in love with Kenneth William Pinney and he's sticking around for a VERY long time. <3 =D
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Saturday, June 24th, 2006
Saturday June 24th, 2006 11:28am	so yeah i just got a live journal i guess that makes me all that much cooler..yeah right. but anyways i have had the best week of my life. my amazing boyfriend Ken and my best friend Dankish came down for the week and it was so much fun. we went to masquamicut (can't spell) and got lost and did fun stuff and slept in the tent! =D i recently discovered that the Sohl residence is my second home and Dianna, Amanda and I had the best talk and i feel like i found my real friends. i also feel like i found the greatest relationship ever. today i hope to see all of my friends and that wonderful boyfriend of mine because it's my brother's graduation party and it should be fun. my parents have been acting really weird...i've lost so much weight and i think i want to start modeling...which would be prettyyyy cooooool. i think right now i might go help setting up some more..i've been up since 9:00 and i feel like im gonna pass out! i'll update this thing laterrr. <3! p.s i absolutely LOVE you Kenneth. =]
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